it's a life afterall. (:: July 2006

Friday, July 28, 2006

todae..after hearing the fact that caren fell down and was in great pain,i rushed to the general office immediately..things happened so suddenly..really very worried for her..nearly cried la..but..cry for wad? lols..she is still awake can! anyway she like cannot tok when she ish lying down there..so scary..suddenly tot of many tings..my imagination went wild...very afraid of losing any of my frens around me..really.. hahas.anyway she called mi and told mi she ish fine le..relieved.. =)) hope she can come sch on mondae bahz...

anyways...im very confused right now...false hope or wad? dono lahz..hais...=( kept thinking bout it... about every single thing that happened in school..in my class..basketball court... canteen..your smile meant alot to me..and to elaine..i don noe wad happened to u...sorry no matter wad the reason can be... =(

i miss xinni. =)

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

hmm..chinese test was easy!! cos i studied can..although cant be compared with elaine lahz..hais..haha..anyway..im competing with myself.. =) lishyuan coming my house soon..hahas..later still got tuition..sianz..and hor..tmr got history test!! sad lahz..i nid to catch up... =( sad lehx..xinni still in sch..then they go art...sad sad sad..hahas...at least they went..and wont get detention! hahahas... xinni ..i miss u alot! hahas.

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

so fast tuesdae liaoz... =( maybe there ish someone who motivated mi to go sch? hahas..maybe becos of u..time seems to fly... hahaz... =)) its getting deeper...and deeper.. ._.
anyway glad that timothy er not angry with mee... thanks..i have things to tell u..but u werent online..hais..dono hows your mock prelim...
it seems to be a problem for me...but i didnt wan to think bout it...i don wan waste my time on frenship anymore...i noe sam is feeling down becos of frens again... hais.. im waiting for his call...
ms tan is right...if we think that we like our class in this state...something is wrong with us...i like the spirit of my class..but i dont like the slackness in it...i like the jokes and laughters in the class..but i don like the "bo-chapness" in it... i really hope my class will sit down and listen to the teachers teach...becos i don wan any of us to retain...i noe im one of the joker whu was sitting behind and distracting others...and i think i gonna stop iit...its time for us to settle down liaoz.. =)
tmr got chinese test and poa retest...thursdae got history test... gd luck to mi... <",>
hmm...maybe there are some ppl whu jus hate mi so much..that they don wanna tok to mi in band or when they are passing by my class..giving mi those "i dont knoe u" look...hahas...don really matter anymore... =) i jus wan to concentrate on my studies now...
anyway hope that we will do well for our tests...

Sunday, July 23, 2006

cry cry cry! is that the only thing i can do? i dono wad the hell im thinking about lor! this and that....im going to explode soon...im very tired.. but now i noe something...think bout nothing..treasure each and every fren beside me... thats the best i can do....not to make anyone sad..angry..disappointed.. time is really precious..and i love bui ni ni alot.. =)) really alot...and i didnt wan to neglect g2c2 anymore..trust me..im trying my best to be included...sorry for everything..for showing attitude all that... sorry...elaine...thanks for chatting with mi yesterdae..i really said everything from the bottom of my heart...and xinni..ii really enjoyed being with u.. trust me... =)) and to timothy er...i hate the word..CHEY!

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

i think i nid a change...in everything..EVERYTHING.. i don wanna be as childish anymore..and let ppl bully jus like that..its not gonna work..i hate it..simply hate it..especially when sec ones tok to u as if u are primary six..haha...not gonna tolerate anything anymore..hais..but...i jus simply cant...someone tell mi wad to do pls..

todaee..recieved a letter from someone...and i didnt expect to recieve a letter from u lorr..reallyz..anyway...its very touching..and i will reply one to u soon..thanks.. =)) hmm..sians lor..todae came back early..played maple..then..later going tuition liaoz..will be coming home at 8.30..so ppl don miss me!! cos after 8.30..i will be baking butter cake!..im trying out for my practical exam this fridae...wish me gd luck..i really very scared lorr..hais..i hope there wont be so many ppl standing outside like last fri..cos i will be very stress de... =X hahas..tmr got band..so im going to try out my macaroni tmr night!! hahas.. okie..i will try to update when im free okie? and i miss samuel alot...he didnt reply my sms! and didnt tok to mi for so long le..hahas... im off to write a letter liaoz... <3...

Sunday, July 16, 2006

hie people...thanks for concern~ im fine now.. =D
todaee..woke up early in the morning..went to mac had breakfast at 6.45am..then went to mit elaine at 7plus..then met lishyuan on the bus.. haha..went to bishan for C.I.P.. asked around for ppl's donations lorr...hahas..grouped with michelle..and we didnt expect there would be so many generous singaporeans around..donating ten dollas without mi approaching..hahaz.
then after that yanling joined us..i helped her lorr.cos our tin already about half full liaoz..then i help yanling..so fast lor!! hahas..i felt so great..lols.. =Xthen so coincidence daryl oso come hougang mall..then we stand there together and ask ppl donate.. fun lahz.. =)) really have man zhu gan... then..went to plaza singapura with the three of them..had lunch at thai express..hahas.. and we took neoprint..so fun..~ and very tiring oso lorr..then michelle and i was supposed to take mrt back to bishan to sign out de..then cant squeez in..so..michelle went in..i walked away lorr..i tapped my ezlink..walked out of mrt station..then.. i oso dono where am i..jus walk here walk there..and happened to walk to a taxi stand..took a cab.. $9..and went back to bishan safely..hahaz.saw ben they all at interchange..then we went to plaza singapura with all of them lahz...so many of them.. cos 3n rocks can.hahaz.then.. waited quite long for yanling at the mrt station.. after that we went shop shop..stand here stand there..then somethings happened...and joey mi elaine chekying and yanling went shop ourselves lorr.. then they came to my house..now they still talking lehx..haha..sitting on the bed..and im using the com..fun toking to them...listening quietly~ hehes..its 9.49pm...hope we can wake up tomoro lahz.. =)) we rock...
really very tired..i go tok to them le..sayonara everyonE~

Friday, July 14, 2006

2618™™BHG~ says:
once upon a time, theres a gal call pj who keep disturbing her cute innocent and intelligent senior while he's makaning. den pj suddenly disappear and we live happily ever after again. the end

Thursday, July 13, 2006

woots..im back to post..i realised...i've liked the wrong person b4. when u think u like someone,think again..is it like or admire? hahas..and never like a person when u noe 1/4 bout him/her... hehes... todae band prac..hais..sick lahz...cannot even breathe properly..how to play... and jason chew say i play very lousy..even he oso can play better than mi...i admit lor..im really lousy and i cant be compared with shukman and timothy er..they are a thousand times better than mi...

managed to cool eileen down...i really hope i can help her...sighs..cheer up clarinet section.. =)) hmm...todae..a pair jus broke up again...hahas.. sad for him.happy for her.cos he will never find someone like her le.. went to see a doctor with xinni...we took mc..didnt go for napfa..lols..went for band instead..sick how to run? u tell mi u tell mi u tell mi! hahas..there ish sectional tomoro.. too bad sec twos are not around..so cant teach eileen anything..and i cant get to see samuel~hehes..

anyway..wanjing..takkare of yourself lahz...=)) hmm..so tired..many more homeworks waiting for mee...heng tmr got someone help mi carry bks to sch..lols~~ oso don wan mention bout wad happened in sch todae..secrets everywhere...sianz ... hm..ok bahz..off to do hw le...sayonara everyone...~ <3

laugh when u r supposed to..
cry when u r supposed to..
smile when u r suposed to too...

and to somebody..whom i dono if u will be reading this post... i wanna say that treasure your frens..cos..a few weeks of friendship/relationship is not comparable to a few yrs...think thrice before u change yourself... =)

Sunday, July 09, 2006

thanks people ferr tagging...anyway..i think im sick again..too stress? im not sure..am i suffering from depression? hahahs.funny hor? i think i must be crazy...kept sneezing..having a very bad sore throat right now.. i cannot even yawn right now as my throat hurts! wonder how is liyan now...hope she ish okae...=) hm.. todae..enjoyed working lorr.quite fun..cos is doreen mahz =X i hope she everyday opening! hhaas..felt that standing at the counter makes the time pass faster...im not sure why..maybe becos u r always toking to customers..and never stopped toking..

'm waiting for the night drifting awayOn the waves of my dreams to another dayI'm standing on a hill and beyond the cloudsThe winds blowing still and catching my doubtsI'm hunting on the night the slave to my dream an illustrated seen decends in the sleepWe're playing for the fights emotional gamesI'm turning off my eyes and hiding my shame

A neverending dream a dream of you I believe I received a sign of youtonight I want to hide my feelings too as you do and I want to be with you

=)
ellpeejay signing off~

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

hello im back...im fine now..thanks everyone.. =) hmm..many things can jus happen overnight.. =D and..im glad that.. through all these things..our friendship became stronger le..and i felt that we all oso grow up le..more mature le.. hahas..im glad..that i chose the right path..i didnt hurt anyone.. and i hope i helped someone.. =) i chose frens!! hahas..thats the reason...and elaine..hope u will make the right decision too.. =DD and i tell u one more time..don say sory le...okae? and im ok.i say alot of times le..im ok!! hahas..im not sad..im not angry..im not disappointed..im happy..becos we didnt quarrel becos of someone. =) and.. its over le..so don think bout it anymore..everyone will remain the same..nothing happened b4.. hehes..and to shaun..hope u wont blame yourself anymore..to lihua..i think i got nothing to say to u..hehes..and to elaine.. actually i hope that.. we didnt see each other at all in ptp mac i mean..and i oso hope that i didnt go out with u all on that day to the movie... now sort of regret..it changed everyting..but now..its back to normal le..hahaz..

i wanna see a rainbow again...i wanna sit on the patch of grass at the beach alone..so that i can think bout every single thing that happened to me for the past 15 yrs...hahas..sometimes i really enjoy being alone..cos no one can disturb me..i don mean that my frens around mi are always disturbing me hor..hahas..i jus felt that being alone..can make u think many things lorr.. hmm..

school todae..not bad..like normal lessons laidat..but i still wan to say that i HATE POA.the teacher.oops. hahas.hmm..todae in sch..like quite bored lorr..poa lesson quite fun toking to the people behind lah hahas.. i hope time will jus stop right now..i really like my classmates alot... =))

i may not be sad when im quiet..i may be tired..
i may not be happy when i joke..i may be trying to entertain pips around me..
i may not be angry when im scolding..i may be disappointed..
i may not be heartbroken when im crying.. i may be glad..
hahas...i wont breakdown so easily..cos xinni still haven got her liscense..and i have to entertain the ppl around me until she gets one! hahas.. =))

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

todae..i realised something... FRIENDS ARE NOT REALLY IMPORTANT IN YOUR LIFE.THEY MAY BE GD.MAY BE EVIL TOO.. I WONT TRUST ANYONE ANYMORE.its better for me to tok to a puppy..or a pet..than to a fren..cos a pet wont betray u...

THANKS SAMUEL FOR THE BELATED BDAE PRESENT POOH BEAR..ITS CUTE.I LOVE IT.THANKS ONCE AGAIN..

Monday, July 03, 2006

are friends really so important..?

Saturday, July 01, 2006

im back to post..actualli nothing much to tok about lorr.its like..erm..let mi think..todae..went for work alone..quite sian lorr.but heng dc came at 12plus 1? hahas..and i told them i sick..so i left at 1.30 instead of 4.. =) came home..slept..but i cant sleep well..dono why..kept thinking about many things lorr...hahas..
among a group of frens..if there ish no entertainer,it will be very bored..but if the group of frens entertain each other..it will be fun..hahas.. =) and todae..xinni told mi she is attending classes for entertaining..which means that..she is taking up a course teaching her entertaining skills..and she deproved alot.. sho sad for her.. =( mus jia you ok? hahas.. =) hope to be really entertained by u one day when im bored.. hm...todae..lihua yiching alvin samuel elaine went to enjoy themselves..sho gd...hahas..tmr i took leave le!! weee...let lihua and dc du guo their er ren shi jie!! hahas.. =X i hope she didnt read my post..
hmm..tmr i will be home alone..sad sad..
yes.. heard from some ppl that..if one started something,he/her himself/herself mus end it..ya..thats right..but when im ending it..i hope there will no one starting it all over again.. remember.DO TO OTHERS WAD U WAN OTHERS TO DO TO YOU..and really thank you TIMOTHY ER..FOR THE ADVISE..BUT..i still haven think of wad to write.. hais..anyway thanks lahz..i noe hating wont help..being angry wont help..but..

i wont believe in frens forever anymore.. cheerios.. tatas`

it's a life afterall. (: