it's a life afterall. (:: January 2006

Saturday, January 28, 2006

Crying all the time, feeling sad about everything, and never feeling happy are all signs and symptoms of clinical depression...

im back!went to heartland mall...cos i wanna pass elaine the bass clarinet scores...im still not sure if im going for istana..if im later than 12.30,i think i wont go...and if alvin nah is going,i will go to istana with him...+ regi they all... =D but if they are oso not going,then too bad...i really hope he wont sabo me....but if he did,i wont trust him anymore..but..i trust him.and i noe he will always kip his promise.. =))and! tonight! we r having steamboat for dinner...and tmr leaving for malaysia ler...sad..now thinking back,wad can i do there? playing those stupid darn loud firecrackers?? i really dont dare to play...and its darn loud!! or running around with those little babies? or carrying those babies? or sleep? or joking and laughing with my brothers and the rest..?talk with those adults? or or or ??? i dont noe lahz..not that excited anymore..maybe becos everyone is growing up le... we'll see how...but i will definately BET! =) to everyone: muss miss mie okae?? hahas...till then i come back,happy chinese new yr everyone! (",)

Friday, January 27, 2006

Around the corner I have a friend,

In this great city that has no end,

Yet the days go by and weeks rush on,

And before I know it, a year is gone.

And I never see my old friends face,

For life is a swift and terrible race,

He knows I like him just as well,

As in the days when I rang his bell.

And he rang mine

but we were younger then

And now we are busy, tired men.

Tired of playing a foolish game

Tired of trying to make a name.

"Tomorrow" I say! "I will call on Jim
Just to show that I'm thinking of him

But tomorrow comes and tomorrow goes,

And distance between us grows and grows.

Around the corner, yet milesaway.

Thursday, January 26, 2006

Todae…

Dunch noe wad happened to me…Im having a very bad headache…band practice.. not the right mood for the band prac todae..its becos of? i dunch noe…tmr is the performance…after the performance…have band prac…timothy is not going…he having tuition..and I oso don’t feel like going..help… Im always having the “don’t wanna go band” mindset… but eventually, I will still turn up..i oso don’t noe why. Okae.enough of this..

To LIHUA & ALL 2T1 JUNIORS.

Im sorry. I noe that I shouldn’t give u guys that shit attitude … jus don’t noe wad im thinking..i noe u guys are just joking…and I walked away is not becos of u guys..its also becos I don’t feel like talking.. im really sorry lahx. And I promise it wont happen again.. lihua.. im sorry. =)) maybe its becos of … sorry. This is confidential.i will tell u personally..and I think u can guess it without mi saying lahz… till here…

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

back back back from camp...people were saying that band practice without sec 3s is better..is that the truth? are we the sec 3s really that useless?but i enjoyed the practice on tues without the rest of the sec threes..but i missed some of them lahx.haha.okae..tomoro have dono wad rehearsal...our class having ssp leix..so tired...

10% giving up..

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

can someone teach me how to forget things easily?i cant help but to lie until the day when i learnt how to forget...jus hoping that i can be as happy as before...thinking about nothing...sigh...

Monday, January 23, 2006

im back! hahas.todae..woke up at 10.45..cos fiona called me..she told mi that mdm lau is finding all those sec 3s who did not go for the camp..lols..im one of them..aiya..then we went to mac...then eat..then accompanied yanling and xinni go eat opp sch..then went into the sch..haha..the four of us..wearing zwinds shirt...then like so dua pai...walk into the sch...haha..then when we saw teachers hide here hide there..lols..quite fun tho. =) then went to open the band room..we played songs lorr.then fiona they all came le..started the cheer thing..okae..not going to continue..cos its quite boring tho. lol.skip ski[p]!
my brother called mi and asked mi if i wan go watch [i not stupid 2] then i said i wan!! but he got only two free tickets..and he is not free to go...so i asked yanling along..he came to sch..to fetch us and gave us the ticket..we reached marina mall around 6.50..then we found our seats..and it started at 7pm.hahas..it was funny and touching...i think the first hour we laughed and laughed..then yanling laughed like siao char bor!! and i actually tot of moving a seat away from hers..haha..shh.. =DD then i asked her to laugh softer..she so funny one lor..the show hor..not so funny,she oso laugh like siao..lol..then it came to the touching part..and tears rolled down our cheeks as we watched.we didnt talk and look at each other..i really enjoyed that show alot..kept wiping my tears throughout the movie..lols..then yanling finally took out her tissue.. and i asked one from her..although one is not enough for me..i didnt get another from her..haha..too paiseh le.
the movie is showing about how the guys turned bad...and learnt bad things..its all becos of their parents..their parents didnt spare enough time for their children..and they only noe how to blame,scold and cane...they didnt spare a thought for their children..and the little boy went to steal money from a shop auntie in school..their parents were informed.! and they tot that the little boy wanna buy pokemon cards..but..actually,he stole the money jus to giv his father..cos he tot that giving his father one hour's salary,his dad would have one hour to go and see his performance in the school..how touching right? and many many more lahx..i wont mention le..i wanna watch again!! haha... =D
then yanling and i..walked walked walked..to dono where..and we decided to take a cab back.! =)) so we walked past the esplanade..inside so damn nice...while we were walking..we saw many many couples..and one couple was hugging,kissing and dancing at dono where..so romantic..haiz.haha...the scenery there so damn nice lorr. hahas...then we went home le...yanling came my house to wait for his dad's arrival...
EvErYoNe hAS tHe RiGhT tO hAvE 1 MoRe ChAnCe.=)

Sunday, January 22, 2006

im not going to care anymore. from this moment onwards.22/01/06. 10.57 pm.

Saturday, January 21, 2006

arg..im so tired..my eyes...so pain..wanna shut down my eyes..but i cant.hhaa! i
nid to arrange my room..tidy my room i mean.chinese new yr is coming...and after
chinese new yr,im not going to have free time for my room le...mon,wed cheer
prac +tuition...tues,thurs,fri band prac...sat..tuition..sundae..SELF
STUDY!tomoro is the sec 3 camp...elaine xinni yanling and i not going...but we r
going to school for the cheer prac..so bored..every second..every minute..every
hour..every day..every week..every year..something is happening..u either be
sad,happy,angry or stress...we can oso choose not to think of anything..but...is
it easy?

finally feeling betta le...told him everything..and i wont think so much anymore..i told him wad im suppose to tell(as a sister/fren)and..its up to him to think.and for her,if she is really doing wad we r thinking...i will hate her forever...many ppl hate her too..they even wan to quit band becos of her...i noticed that..i dare to say more things compared to last time..but i dont noe if its good or bad la..and im very scared...he will get hurt.. i really regret asking him to stead..i should have jus said..: up to u... and i shouldnt comment...=S and really hope that he wont be hurt again...

im so sorry..this is my blog and i will jus type wadever that comes into my mind... ..and fiona..thanks.=))learnt many things from u...and i think he will thank u too. =)

but im still quite stressed leix..not becos of this lahz..i have no more rights to interfere any further.. im afraid i will regret again..lols..now eileen and jun ni not quitting band le? haha.so happy..! =D trying to teach eileen note by note.bar by bar..but i scared...when she is infront of mr chew...can she manage?nvm lah...jus teach teach teaach and teach for now... =) i hope it works..=))

im not going for camp!!! haha...im too tired...too stress...wanna stay at home study...wanna slp..don feel like think about anything...im trying...to get out of lala land..but i cant lehx..have been thinking alot during most of the lessons in class...(computer labs excluded) haha...tuitions...headache la...sians...!

i hate the smile u r giving me. =) tatas.

Thursday, January 19, 2006

Haiz..band todae…started at around 3.45… warm ups..same same same. So little people..then mr chew grumbles..as usual. Then.. found out that many people wanna quit band? From third clarinet some more.both! how now? Izzati come for practice oni once a week! And now im transferred to the bass clarinet.. wad will happen next? Germaine lee is oso transferred to sax le.. =( hais..miss my section alott. Then sec fours leaving soon.how how how!!! Timo er leave then mi alone liaoz lorr..so stress..cant cope with my hw these few days..how how how..i nid help..im having a bad headache now!! Having flu sore throat..blah blah blah.. and tmr having marching!! Hope I wont feel giddy tmr.. perhaps I nid a rest..24 hours of sleep wont be enough.i nid 30…im daydreaming.

And to those people in the band.
Chenying: eh peijie u like timothy ar?
Peijie: no lah! Who say de?
Chenying: no mehx…nothing jus asking. at least got one person from most sections saying bout it now..

Pls lahz.to chenying. To germaine. To those people in those sections. To jiaying. To timothy yeo.to the whole band. To all sec 3s. to the whole school. PLS STOP GOSSIPING LAHZ. PLEASE DON MAKE MI HATE GOING TO BAND.AND PLS STOP ASKING MI THOSE STUPID QUESTIONS.I DON’T LIKE HIM OKAE.HE IS ATTACHED…NOT TO ME.IF U WANNA NOE..GO ASK HIM YOURSELF.I TRIED TO STOP GETTING CLOSE TO HIM LE..U ALL STILL SAY THESE THINGS..sigh.AND I REALLY DON LIKE HIM.stop those nonsense.thanks.

Sunday, January 15, 2006

finally finished ONE OF MY HOMEWORK.hahas.only one.chinese zuo ye.the rest..die le.tmr have chemistry test..and i didnt even revise!! how could i!!yep.today...yanling and xinni came to my house around one pm..we talked,we laughed,we played,we enjoy.haha =)) then we go meet elaine at heartland mall.we took two neoprints.[$20]. and we bought flowers for regina,sze hui,junxian,betty,mr aw,mr goh,jacko..hahas.total is $55.30($7.90 each)but,yanling paid for mr goh and mr aw's ones..and xinni paid for junxian and betty's.and i paid for the rest.=)so its [$23.80..] =) then i topped up my ezlink card. [$10] then met them at the cc hall lorr.after the concert...we waited for regina.and we went to bishan.ate at cafe cartel..duno wad the hell im thinking the whole dae...seems to be in lala land for quite long..=S sigh. we ate.and...didnt tok much lahz..

dc and huida went straight home after the concert..hey my dear cuz,IM SO SORRY..im really really sorry cos i didnt really entertain u guys.ya.im really trying to get out of lala land..but...hahas.perhaps im jus too tired.=) maybe only tired.and jus wanna slp. but we are mitting soon remember?hehes.we will talk till the 3rd morning..till the last minute,when we r on our own way home.=) try onli.haha.i may be too tired. hahas.and thanks for coming todae.=)

oh ya.yanling and i ate deli france in kovan before leaving.its [$8.50] for mine.then i bought bubble tea! [$2.10] kae..then.after the concert we took a merz taxi to bishan while regi they all took a bus there.=)then after eating,timo and jy went home.. =X then ulric,regi,bert,me,xinni,yanling,elaine went to take neoprints.but guys excluded.haiz.hahas.then i spent [$20] on neoprints again. =) then xinni,mi,yanling,elaine,took a cab to our own destination.i passed [$10] to elaine.cos she stays the furthest.and she is the last one in the cab.and she dont have money left.and i felt so bad to leave bertrand alone!! really very bad.
so sorry bert... =( and regi!![really so fun going out with u!lets mit up again sis!heez =))]

total...$94.40! im officially bankrupt. =(

I'm Sorry... for all the mean things i have said.

I'm Sorry...For all the things i did or didn't do.

I'm Sorry...If I ever ignored YOU.

I'm Sorry... If I ever made you feel bad or put you down.

I'm Sorry...If I ever thought I was bigger or better than you..

I Luv You...Don't EVER forget that! Through bad times and good,I'll always be here for you

I'm Sorry...For everything wrong I've ever done

=))

Saturday, January 14, 2006

im back! cos i think that i have things to post.? lols. i have nothing to post when i have a blog.but when i dont have one,i will have lots of things in mind.wad should i do?haha. keep this blog alive?

it's a life afterall. (: