it's a life afterall. (:: February 2006

hey.im so tired.its so fun chatting with lishyuan and xinni about past times.. really missed those days so much.first day in ZHONGHUA.mi siitting down alone.and they even remembered mi bring a blue OP sling bag.wow.hahaz...i have to go and study le..social studies tmr.die. =X good luck to those whu are having tests! hahaz. zj!!

Chingster™ 1o days! says:
i HATE and DETEST those who REALLY give up hope

im back! tmr got food and nutrition test leix..sianz..one without love,logic will contradict...anyway.. nokia 6111 or 7610 better?! poa test on thurs.its my death anniversary i think.good luck to me.i may join him soon. i really wan to help u..but the prob is..i dono how to help u.pls..let me help u.and i really hope i will be the one beside u listening to all your probx. ._.

i hope the word "hate" doesnt appear in my dictonary anymore..and i hope i wont be influenced by anyone hating someone else.im trying.

finally have the TIME to blog!i really nid more time for my studies than band.im really lagging behind time.i always tot i can manage time well.in fact,i cant.its not that im blaming band..its not band's fault..its mi whu cant manage my time well.in short,im slow.im a slow learner.understand? i nid more time to understand POA,chem,physics,history,social studies.. see how slow am i..hahaz..studying till 12 plus these few days..so tired..nearly late for sch today..luckily my dad is willing to wake up and drive me to school... =D
targetz`
english-A2
mathematics-A1
chinese-A1
chem-B4
physics-B4
socialstudies/history-B3
F/N-B4

driving mee mad...march 13 is coming...

my heart aches.

i finally managed to take a nap for at least 4hrs.so shuang.don believe..go try lor.hahaz.tomoro have band! tomoro have physics test and i haven study yet..heard its quite diff?i mus pass lei...so scared i wont promote to sec four.oops.shh.better keep my mouth shut. =X lolz. im so active now!! i can study..but..i am lazee to study!! i will definately study when my com is spoilt.but i didnt say i wan my com to spoil.hahaz..its so miserable without com..cant come online.cant chat with xinni!! anyway.thats life i thought. ._.

learn to let go unhappiness.they dont help. try to catch hold of happiness.i wont say it helps.but at least its better than unhappiness. =D im trying.. ._.

fiona.u r doing too much for the band.thanks fer everything.

在我的心上刻下一个名字
不用刻意也不可能忘记
这一个你让我的每天更有趣
连呼吸都变成是一种甜蜜
在我的床边贴著你的影子
闭上眼睛梦里也能见你
如果爱情是王子和公主的游戏
孩子气不算什么问题
牵着你我
陪你看流星
我为你把时间暂停
晴天或下雨
牵着你
找一个浪漫天真的结局
因为你我相信世界真的存在奇迹

i felt that..im like an idiot..listening to all those craps without noeing anything.knowing all those craps but i cant help...how i wish i can help..but i cant even noe wads happening..private is all u can say.should i stop listening to all of my friends troubles and difficulties..jus go band to play songs..go school to study..?can i still believe things like god brother or god sister? should i? tell me.

there are no strangers in the world but only friends we have yet to knoe..

many things happened.many things are happening..many things will be happening..im so darn confused right now..don noe wad to think..wanted to study..but don have the mood to..now waiting for tuition..wanted to tidy up my room..but im lazy..wanted to sleep..but i have to wait for the tuition..i don feel like living sometimes..haha..and i despise people whu have no thinking minds of their own..im not sure if im one of them.i jus look down on them..ppl say wad,they will follow.of cos..i don like my frens to qian jiu mi..means give in to me..really don like..for example..if i wan to go jurong..i asked my frens wan go with me anot..then i don wan them to go jus becos they are afraid of mi being angry.hahas.i think that is so stupid..i like them to do things on their own wish..and sometimes,i really don mind going home or anywhere alone..i jus don like my frens to be left out..=Dreason is..they are my frens. =))

I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave meBut i do do feel thatI too too will miss you muchMiss you much...I can see the first leaf falling
It's all yellow and nice
It's so very cold outside
Like the way i'm feeling inside
I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
But i do do feel thatI too too will miss you much
Miss you much...

Outside it's now raining
And tears are falling from my eyes
Why did it have to happen
Why did it all have to end
I'm a big big girlIn a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
But i do do feel that
I too too will miss you much
Miss you much...
I have your arms around me ooooh like fire
But when i open my eyes
You're gone...

I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
But i do do feel that
I too too will miss you much
Miss you much...
I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
But i do feel i will miss you much
Miss you much...

Hiding from the rain and snow
Try to forget but I won't let go
Looking at a crowded street
Listening to my own heart beat
So many people all around the world
Tell me where do I find someone like you girl
[Chorus]
Take me to your heart take me to your soul
Give me your hand before I'm old
Show me what love is - haven't got a clue
Show me that wonders can be true
They say nothing lasts forever
We're only here today
Love is now or never
Bring me far away
Take me to your heart take me to your soul
Give me your hand and hold me
Show me what love is - be my guiding star
It's easy take me to your heart
Standing on a mountain high
Looking at the moon through a clear blue sky
I should go and see some friends
But they don't really comprehend
Don't need too much talking without saying anything
All I need is someone who makes me wanna sing
[Chorus]

er..guess wad? i think i managed to forgive jiaying..! forgive everyone who has done something wrong b4..do not hate.it dont makes mi happy.it only makes mi miserable..i have been thinking alot these few days..over wad ms chan told me..now that i have apologised to jiaying..i feel better i think?To xinni,lishyuan,elaine,lihua or whoever..to all my frens..if u r wondering how come i will apologise to someone i hate the most before,and renee can forgive lihua and cooperate with her.why cant i do the same? i can say that renee changed alot better.. really..but rest assure that i have no motive.yanling oso apologised to jy this morning..and jy apologised back..so..lets all start anew..and from now onwards..pls stop telling mi bad things about anyone le..=) and...now im thinking bout something else..should i .. or should i not..im confused...i still nid time..

got tagged by benny! stupid as it seems, i decided to join in for fun.
1.the tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lover.
2.need to mention the sex of the target.
3.Tag 8 victims to join this game & leave a comment on their comments saying they've been tagged.
4.If tagged a 2nd time; no need to post
here goes...
target: male
1.nice.
2.responsible.
3.reasonable.
4. sensitive.
5.very understanding
6.caring.
7.serious.
8.integrity integrated.
and i decided to tag xinni,yanling,alvin,benny,no more la aiyo..

i have the right to be unhappy.and when im unhappy,do u think i still bother to show u tat im happy? if u don like my attitude,then get lost.

thanks alot alvin nah. =)

i wont really be so devoted to band anymore..the feeling is not there le.if im still playing the 3rd clarinet now,i think i will not even go to band..but now im playing the bass..and i still dono how to play most of the songs..and timo er leaving le..sigh..as wad xinni said..so stress..most of the days got band..really very tired...i noe many of the seniors will say: as if im not tired.. aiya..we r jus saying wad we feel..so u all oso cannot blame us ma..sighs..tmr have three tests..poa,chi and f/n.. i go stardy le lahz..imu..

yanling...its not that u r stupid or wadever...u r jus too innocent..let ppl bully u,u also wan to forgive..its up to u lahz..but i hope,after she reply u,wheather is yes or no..hope,u wont regret asking that question...and hope u wont be sad or angry about that matter anymore..as u said,u wont wan to mention it from tomoro onwards..so,do wad u wan..and make sure u wont regret..remember,no matter wad..the crack is forever there..if u don believe,ask wenlei..she will also disagree with u... anyway,forget the past and start afresh lahz. =))

sianz..haiz..cant bear to del those msg u sent mi last time.. =S wad should i do next..go paste the scores!i wan to buy new hp...!feel like buying 7610..nid money!!haha..okae.im going off to do my work..cos tmr going out the whole dae! =D

went to band todae..lao yu sheng..don really like the smell..so didnt touch any..and bout ____ i don wanna say anymore..later going to call lihua..haiz..always call her,is about band things..she can never be happy about band..always either disappointed,sad or angry..sigh.she is the bsm..but she seems to be jus a bm..she did many tings for the band.. organised sec one games dae..blah blah blah..if u think im trying to hint something,so be it.as i said,i wont care about anything else..i will jus say wad i feel,do wad i wan.wadever las. .. most ppl in the band oso don wanna tok bout it le..really,very annoying la..and .. tomoro have maths test..dono if i will pass..cos my poa flunk le. =)going sectionals alone tmr again...dono for wad reason timo er is not going tmr..=( shit..its going to be 28th feb soon... =(

stupid ass! fuck! fuck fuck fuck.! get lost.im always in the wrong.fuck fuck fuck.

it's a life afterall. (:

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